“ME”.

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Let’s talk about the “ME”. with something, or with nothing.

The “ME” with something it’s always more complete. Giving more chances it’s not like a shadow in the dark or under the sunlight that can disappear later.  Instead of the “me” with nothing. In the “me” with  nothing , we remove the caps lock. Doesn’t suit. Because it’s nothing special.

The subject is one. Since there the “ME” when you apply to me you should use ‘YOU” and not ‘you’. Doesn’t suit.  What the “ME” wants to say ?

Can be too many things such as :

Wait ME/Love ME/Adore ME/Don’t hate ME(for any reason)/Think of ME/Want ME/Need ME/Kiss ME/Hug ME/Dream of ME/… in a further convo.. the ME means “Make ME the center of your world. And wait ME for when I can”.

How the non-caps lock “me” , should apply to the “ME”-with something ?

I wait YOU/I Love YOU/I dream of YOU/I want YOU/I think of YOU/I need YOU/ … etc… etc… etc…

That’s how it goes. Because 1+1=2. 1+1=2? NO, 1+1=what I want.

“me”. with nothing

No Title :D

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Sometimes I’m thinking and thinking.  And I don’t find any way or solution. I don’t know what is for me.  I got bored from theories and ‘have to’.  I got fed up from everything almost. 

I don’t like to use and I don’t like to get used by others too.  And I am getting angry when I allow myself to be in any situation - although i consider it friendly - . 

What’s ‘forever’ ? What stories and fairytales are these ?  How ‘large’ people can be to show off ? How easy they say the words .  My only reaction it’s a big “PFT” .  I’m bored and stressed .  And I don’t like myself this way.

First because when I am feeling angry, I don’t control my words , even I try always to do this .  Second , I feel uncomfortable. Third , pissed off with myself , cos I don’t know how i permit myself to be in situation i consider them ’shitty’.  And no I don’t ask for excuse for my word.

I know that when I am angry my tongue can cut anything. The problem is that right now I don’t feel exactly angry.  Hmm I just feel  I could crush anything :D. Nervous ? Is this the right word ? Upset ? As if I care anyway.

You wait and wait and wait , for what ? For what worths to wait ? For what isn’t coming ? For what you think it is going to be there tomorrow ? I don’t really know.

I dislike anything I consider fake, and I don’t feel happy to see I am right . I don’t feel good at all , cos is from the few situations I wish I was wrong.  But I am not.

And you know what ? After all , it’s all about me , blame it on me. 

As a phrase says : I used to care but now I take a pill for that. 

 God bless people , God bless me.

Narcissus and Echo

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Few days ago , someone said I am narcissist lol. Today we had a conversation with some friends about narcissists and narcissism. So I thought it would be a good idea to describe the real story of Narcissus from the Greek mythology.

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When Zeus came to the mountains, the wood nymphs rushed to embrace him. They played with him in icy waterfalls and laughed in lush green glades.

Zeus’ wife, Hera, was very jealous and often she searched the mountains trying to catch her husband with the nymphs. 

Echo was one of the nymphs. She was very beautiful and she used to amuse Hera with long and entertaining stories, while Zeus took advantage to ravish the other mountain nymphs.

When Hera discovered the trickery she punished the talkative Echo by taking away her voice. Hera said to Echo “Your tongue has made a fool of me! Your voice will be more brief, my dear! You will always have the last word, but never the first!”

Echo fell in love with a youth named Narcissus, who was the son of the blue Nymph Leiriope of Thespia. The River god Cephisus had once encircled Leirope with the windings of his streams, and thus trapping her, had seduced the nymph. Narcissus was their child.

Concerned about Narcissus welfare, Leiriope went to consult the oracle called Teiresias, regarding her son’s future. Teiresias told the nymph that Narcissus “would live to a ripe old age, as long as he never knew himself”.

Narcissus was handsome even as a child and grew even more so as he matured. By the age of sixteen already had left a trail of broken hearts, from rejected lovers.

One day, when Narcissus was out hunting, Echo followed the handsome youth through the woods, longing to address him but unable to speak first. When Narcissus finally heard footsteps, shouted “who’s there?” , Echo answered “Who’s there?”. And so it went, untill finally Echo showed herself and rushed to embrace the lovely youth.

He pulled away from the nymph. Narcissus left Echo heartbroken and she spent the rest of her life in lonely glens, pinning away for the love she never knew, untill only her voice remained.

Echo humiliated and filled with sorrow, wandered the mountains untill she found a lonely cave to live in.  Meanwhile Narcissus hunted in the woods tending only to himself, untill one day he discovered a hidden pool of water. The pool had a silvery smooth surface. Only the sun dance upon the still pond.

Narcissus lay on his stomach , leaned over the water. But when he looked at the water, he saw someone staring back at him. Narcissus was spellbound. Gazing up at him from the pool were eyes like twin stars, framed by hair as golden as Apollo’s and cheeks as smooth as ivory.

When he reached out and tried to embrace this vision of beauty, he found no one there. “what love could be more cruel than this?” he cried. “When my lips kiss the beloved, they touch only water! When I reach for my beloved, i hold only water!”

Narcissus began to weep. When he wiped away his tears, the person in the water also wiped away tears. Narcissus saw the truth that time.  He yearned for his own reflection. In love with his own reflection.

Day after day , Narcissus stared at the water. He began to waste away from grief, until one sad morning, he felt himself dying from sadness, understood why all was falling in love with him. “Good bye my love” he shouted to his reflection.

“Good bye my love” Echo cried to Narcissus from her cave deep in the woods. Narcissus took his last breath.

After he died , the water nymphs and wood nymphs searched for his body. But all they found was a magnificently beautiful flower the hidden pool. Had white petals and a yellow center.

Echo , desolate after Narcissus’s death, did not eat or sleep. All her beauty faded away and she became very thin untill her voice was all that left.  Thereafter , the lonely voice of Echo was heard in the mountains, repeating the last words anyone said.

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Vita…

Avete il pennello, avete i colori, dipingete voi il paradiso e poi entrateci…

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Music time



Gianna Nannini - Meravigliosa Creatura

Molti mari e fiumi
attraversero
dentro la tua terra
mi ritroverai
turbini e tempeste
io cavalchero
volero tra il fulmini
per avertiMeravigliosa creatura sei sola al mondo
meravigliosa creatura paura di averti accanto
occhi di sole mi bruciano in mezzo al cuore
amore e vita meravigliosa

Luce dei miei occhi
brilla su di me
voglio mille lune
per accarezzarti
pendo dai tuoi sogni
veglio su di te
non svegliarti
non svegliarti
non svegliarti….ancora

Meravigliosa creatura
sei sola al mondo
meravigliosa paura d’averti accanto
occhi di sole mi tremano le parole
amore e vita meravigliosa

Meravigliosa creatura un bacio lento
meravigliosa paura d’averti accanto
all’improvviso tu scendi nel paradiso
muoio d’amore meraviglioso

Meravigliosa creatura
Meravigliosa
occhi di sole mi bruciano in mezzo al cuore
amore e vita meravigliosa

I miss you

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Night thoughts

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Night thoughts. I am thinking how i can engaged the peace and the war, the scarlet with the white. I am thinking the paths I walk on, like the midnight shadows of an early dream.  Like my shadow that i can’t touch. I’m the watcher and the star too.

A film that takes place to the shore of my heart. Too many scenes to the coast of my eyes. The falling tears shaped into a lake. The crystal white thing  it’s the leaving soul of my being. 

Birds are flying and I am trying to catch the dream. The purple veil comes and goes like a wing in the wind. A white long dress is the desire , a white long dress becomes red , a deep red like the blood of my heart.

My veins. Inside runs the desire mixed up with the dreams.  A strong desire for what I can’t reach. I don’t give up even when i open my eyes. 

Night thoughts and all I need is You.

Disadvantages

 Ok let’s talk about them. Today while I was drinking my coffee with my friends , we was talking about disadvantages. So we decide to make soemething like a game. We will post all of us at least 7 of our disadvantages. So here I go…

1. Possessive : I am a very possessive person , this is truth even if I am a person with a big understanding too.

2. Selfish: I am selfish on the most things in my life. I am selfish to those I love. I am selfish to my things too.

3. Egoist: Even tho I can get well across conversations , fights , or friendly talks, many times I am becoming more egoist than I should maybe.

4. Stubborn : Yes I am stubborn :D I have this disadvantage too

5. Good: Despite the up characteristics of me I believe that generally I am more good with everybody, more good than I should be , so the result of this is, I find myself to be sad from the people.

6. Dreamer: I don’t know how good or bad is to have a dream, to make dreams, to put aims, to have goals. I think many times we can fall down from the clouds , but also I think we can’t live without dreams.

7. Hard: I can be hard enough in specific situations and specific people , but not just like that . I don’t enjoy it, but there are times I need to be , that’s it.

8. Nervous: I am getting nervous easily sometimes, and even if I try to stay calm , I can’t always succeed it. The bad is when I am nervous I can say anything :D lol

9. Sarcastic: Yes i can be sarcastic too but before anybody else I am sarcastic with myself, not on others.

10. Jealous : I am jealous :D Yesssssss very jealous on what I love on what I consider mine. The good in this is, by the time I can overcome too many things. When I see beyond my jealousy I can do it work out good .

So , these are my biggest disadvantages as person. I don’t know whether are really bad or not. I know that all of us have advantages and disadvantages. And I didn’t wrote them to be judged :D lol no I am not arrogant , at least not always :D I wrote them due to the game I mentioned before. At least I am not afraid to admit them. This world didn’t build by pink clouds and angels only. Human beings we are great or not.. And our disadvantages sometimes are those who makes the difference on each one of us. Other than this there’s nothing much to say. For those who will give a part of their time to read here , I have to say thanks.

Seize the day !

Just a small poem

Mondays child is fair of face

Tuesdays child is full of grace

Wednesdays child is full of woe

Thursdays child has far to go

Fridays child is loving and giving

Saturdays child works hard for his living

And the child that is born on the Sabbath day

Is bonny and blithe and good, and gay.

This isn’t something i wrote lol i just find it out on the web :D

Spring :D

 Hello :D Spring and my head is full of ideas , some are crazy some are less crazy :D Hmm my mood is doing great at least for the current time :D Tease, tickle, treat good :D the 3 T. Be, beautiful, baby, the 3 B. Love , live, laugh the 3 L. :D Feel, full, fabulus :D and many more…

 We could play with the whole alphabet in order to reveal ‘words’ :D Oh , did i told you how much i love the flowers ? And how much i love the spring too ? Mostly when it takes my mind far away. And when it puts  me ideas for future things :D I can smell the roses and the violets , the green grass and everything fresh or even .. old :D lol (for whom the bell is beating?) not my fault :D someone else mention such things , ages stuff :D lol

 Can you smell the perfume ? Can you ? If not .. it’s too bad :P If yes you are in a good way , don’t go out from the path. Follow the road of your heart :D of your dreams, of your desires … - desires , dreams , and heart included ONLY me - this is just to mention the ‘Path’ :D to not feel complicated with the directions :D

 As the quote says : Spring is when you feel like whistling , even with a shoe full of slush. :D

 So put a smile on the face and go on , see things around you that can make you happy. Put a small stone more on what you have build already. And be happy for what you have succeed til now.  Be happy for your failures too for they teached you. Be happy for your mistakes , and have no regrets. All happened , happening , will happen for a reason :) So come on Smileeeeee, this isn’t candid camera :P this is life :D